Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Waving Boldly in the Corrupt Sands of Commerce

These are the things on my mind today.

I'm thinking about my (our) (using plural instead of singular pronouns is one of the greatest things about being married) (it means I always have a pal) future.  And it is terrifying.  

The thing is, I want to be a college professor and a high school teacher.  I want to be a lawyer and a chef and a writer and a magazine editor.  I want to study literature for the rest of my life, and I also want to never have to go to school again after these past few hellish semesters.  I want to be a domestic stay-at-home mom, and I want to rule the world.  

I want to be everything, but I also don't want to be anything except for the person I am. 

I want to do something valuable.  I want to be true to myself and I want to be kind to other people.  

I've been thinking about it, and I want to be Kathleen Kelly.

When I think about the life I want to live, I want to live in the world of You've Got Mail.  I want it to always be fall in New York City.  I want to send bouquets of sharpened pencils, and order tall decaf CAPPUCCINOS! (Not really.  I love the WoW)  I want to spend my days doing something like equipping children with the very  best books, books like Dancing Shoes, and Ballet Shoes, and Skating Shoes by Noel Stretfield.  I want daisies.  Aren't daisies the friendliest flower?  

I want to lead a small life.  Well, valuable, but small.

I realized this when I read this masterful blog post that I stumbled upon when reading the blog of my favorite Kathleen-Kelly-esque blogger. (Neither of those women know me.  Sorry for creepin'!)    

I've found my big, bad Joe Fox.  (F-O-X)  His name is Robby.  And I really, truly wanted it to be him.  I wanted it to be him so badly. 

Now I need my Shop Around the Corner.  

P.S.  I might just be saying this because I currently have the world's worst head cold.  So I would really appreciate it if you all could just go away.        

P.P.S.  I also might be saying this because I feel like I'm totally channeling Kathleen Kelly in my outfit today. This is my proudest style moment.